miles stephen roberts
may 5, 2013
8lb; 19 inches
I had a c-section, I was four days overdue, and I was exhausted.
here's what happened:
april 30
dr. appt. no progress. no contractions. if you don't progress, your chances of a c-section are high, she told me.
I'll progress, I thought.
may 1
due date.
may 2
nothing.
may 3
7 pm out to dinner with greg's family.
No contractions. This baby's not coming anytime soon, I told them.
10 pm contractions
10:02 pm contractions
10:04 pm contractions
10:06 pm contractions
contractions continue
10:30 pm uh, greg, I think this baby might be coming soon
contractions continue
may 4
12 am bags packed, at the hospital
hooked up to iv's. heart racing. what have we gotten ourselves into?
let's wait an hour to see your progression, said the nurse
12:10 am contractions slow
12:40 am contractions even more slow
okay, greg, the baby's not coming. let's get ready to go home.
1 am
okay, we're admitting you, said the nurse
baby's heartbeat is a little scary. you're going to have this baby.
no progress.
cervadil to ripen cervix.
1 pm
no progress
let's try another medication
(don't remember the name)
4 pm
no progress
infection. antibiotics.
again
8 pm
no progress
oxygen. slowed baby heart rate. lots of tears.
water broken. pitocin. balloon.
let's wait and see in a few hours
10 pm
no progress. oxygen. more tears.
epidural.
may 5
4 am
no progress. oxygen. exhausted. pain.
lots of pain. lots and lots of pain.
probably from your infection or your tired contracting uterus.
nope, your epidural is leaking. yikes. fixed.
8 am
you're dilated to a 3. 80% effaced.
but his heart rate is slowing. no more pitocin for you.
let's see if your body can do it by itself.
8:30 am
contractions slow.
slower. slower. stopped.
9 am
let's get this baby out.
we've tried everything to get have you deliver vaginally.
90% chance c-section. 10% chance vaginal delivery.
no way in hell I can push this baby out, thought to myself
11:30 am
c-section time
scared. sleepy. out.
Miles was born at 11:46 am.
1:30 pm
wake up.
where is my baby?
2 pm
found him.
there was nothing more sweet than holding this little one in my arms.
I just stared at him.
grateful to have him with me, alive.
grateful to be alive.
many tears, many kisses.
more in love than I could ever have imagined.
it really didn't matter how he got here.
I had him.
he is mine.
and I couldn't be more in love.
